Fight the good fight of faith
Life is so uncertain! Believe it or not, I feel one of the advantages to having a long term disease is a feeling of urgency to live every day for God, because my days on earth may be cut short. Before cancer, I was one of those people who was lulled into a false sense of security and complacency. I believe in God and know that Jesus died on the cross to save me, but I wasn’t giving Him my full attention; I wasn’t dialed into Him like I should be. However, I became laser focused on Jesus after receiving my first cancer diagnosis. After I received treatment and the cancer was suppressed I began to take my eyes off of Jesus – again, as the world lured me back to focus on earthly things.
Like a cold bucket of water that was poured over me, I found out the cancer came back stronger, my eyes and heart turned back to Jesus. I am so grateful and thankful that even though I am faithless, (in practice), God will remain faithful, for He cannot disown Himself,
(2 Timothy 2:13)
Through my trial, I have matured exponentially in the Lord and am trying to listen to the small still voice of the Holy Spirit in how better to serve the Lord and live for Him. One thing I have struggled with is that I have a strong impression to write my experiences down to be a living testimony for the Lord. I’ve written in journals, and started writing a book, but I always seemed to come to a road block and quit.
One night, I was listening to a sermon from Joseph Z, who prophesies. All of a sudden he looked intently at the TV monitor and said God moved him to speak this message: “Yes, your children will be saved and write the book God wants you to write.” I took his message to heart as I believe it was the voice of the Holy Spirit, speaking to me through Pastor Joseph Z. I have been burdened daily to pray fervently for my children and children’s children to be saved in the Lord Jesus Christ. I realized I also have to be obedient to His will, so I started writing a blog to be a testimony for Jesus Christ. My hope is that this will be a step forward into fulfilling God’s will.
I want to let you know that Jesus is there! He loves you and gave his life for you. It is the greatest gift of all, His gift,(free gift), of grace that you simply accept. Come as you are, believe in Him, confess your sins, and be transformed into a new creature, a new person. I am here to testify that there is the peace of God, that transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7 NIV
For this reason I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God… For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and self-discipline.
2Timothy 1:6-7 NIV
Pursue and fight the good fight of faith.